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kdg2 cube pk. nape tuhan bg dugaan? sbb dye nk umat dye jd tabah. amek contoh aku. awal thn nie je da mcm2 dugaan aku dpt. ujung march papa meninggal. 1 family t'kjot cz papa da sehat. smpai skrg kitorg still xley overcome the loneliness. tmbh2 family aku sume gurl je yg tggl. klo ikutkn if aku nie da 24 thn sure aku kawen tewos x pk2 agy. bkn sbb gatal tp nk ringankn beban mama n kurgkn dose papa. at least ble aku da kawen dose aku sume suami yg tanggung. kn? de se2tgh org sng je ckp, bz kn diri. nnt lupe la tue. they dun u'stand actually. they're not the one who suffer. tue psl family. nie psl study. de la se2tgh lecturer yg bengong nie x reti nk mengajar. abes pe gune aku msok swatsa n byr mhl2 if nk mkn gaji bute je. kdg2 lecturer sndri pun tnjk cnth yg x bgs. suwo g clazz pkai sopan2 tp lect sndri pkai sleeveless cover ngan jacket je. if kurus xpe. nie perot buncit lemak b'lipat2. is this what they call 'harapkn pagar, pagar mkn padi?' sorry if aku wat sape2 terase tp nie la realitinye. agy 1 ptptn. aku x amek pt dlu sbb papa ckp dye tamo sshkn ank dye byr ble da keje nnt. thx papa, i really appreciate it. now aku kne amek gak since my hero had gone forever. pt nie pun satu. ske sgt sshkn org. pkai on9. igt canggih la sgt pdhal agy menyusahkn. pkai manual je kn agy sng. wat pening pale je. diz sem je aku pnye study tunggang langgang. how do u expect me 2 study hard if all this thing came tumbling over? i'm just waiting for some miracle to happen. aku x mntk byk pun. i just wanna see me my mum to stop crying and my two sisters to be happy. dat's all. and to whoever that i know, i'm sorry if i can't satisfied all your needs. i'm just a human being who need to think bout herself first. gimme a break cz i need it.

Dance with my father )=

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream



To my late father who had passed away peacefully on 26th March 2009.
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